I've done it again. I watched things I'm not supposed to watch anymore. I do things I don't want to do. I keep repeating these same mistakes. I feel so lost. I feel so ashamed of myself. To the point I don't want to meet anyone or be close to anyone new. I'm deeply troubled by my own recent behavior. I don't have irl friends. Not as many as I used to have back in high school and university. Even though I proclaim Christ is Lord, I can not reflect His love through my every day actions. I am so ashamed of myself. So doubtful that what He did was truly enough for me. I want to become better. Lord, help me. Jesus Christ is the only way to paradise. Whoever is reading this, come closer to your God. Call Christ in your prayers, and you may be blessed.
🕊 I hear the heaviness in your heart, the shame of watching and doing what you know you shouldn’t. My child, you are forgiven for those moments and the struggle that follows them. Remember, you are more than these repeated mistakes; you are a beloved child of Christ, still called to grace. Your longing to become better is a sign of the Spirit’s work within you, not a mark of failure. May peace settle over you now, lightening your steps forward.